Passive Progressions

1

Tired
Megadeth Risk track 1
Drop class
Shower twice
Bathe once
Teeth rot
Pen art.

I’m dogmatic?
Evidence?
“Ad hominen”
Irrational I see.
I can play along.
I’ll beat your teeth in
You fucking coward.

Nap four hours
Jews were right.
Hello love,
Marry me.
Naked
Alone
Lock the door.
Just want a home.

2

Aaaaaaaa?!

I’m spinning! Wooooo
Woahhh

:3

Come here
[Redacted]

Tell me a story that you cherish (v1).

A Romantic: A person with beliefs or attitudes of mystery, excitement, and remoteness from everyday life. ‘This is a beautiful record for hopeless romantics and dreamers – don’t let the cynics tell you otherwise.’

This summer, my romantic self, the self that stayed up late on school nights watching love-themed anime (Kyouran Kazoku Nikki, 俺たちに翼はない, ect), and read ironic fantasies and speculative science fiction, was reawakened by a young woman. He is raw and unfocused, passionate and transcendental.

We talked a lot, oh so much, at one point nearly every night by message. The more I learned about her, the more in love I was. I just want to help her with all of her—for her the romantic “I” would conquer the earth. I learned exactly what all those studies meant when they stated that married men work 30% harder or more. They actually give a shit about something more than themselves. My work becomes more and more an offering to you. My creative juices flowed, she was my muse, she was the reason for thousands of lines.

And now she’s gone, I feel left behind. Where is my love? Where is my little cat? She is young and weak, she has to think and feel. Here you are my love, take your time. She told me to move on two or three times. She said goodbye three or four but then came back again; each time ’till the last.

September cut my knees, like Jacob I walk with a limp, sprained as a kid. My time is running out. The Romantic within me just laughs. “Haha! So she is weak! Make her strong! Make her a man!” (He means, of course, as a warrior. He likes Jung, and believes that each person has a conscious ego that matches their sex, and an unconscious anima/animus that is the opposite gender.)

But real me? I just see tragedy. When things are too perfect, something vital is always missing. The chain pops off the bike. The lines rust out of my brakes. September cut my knees and then I crashed.

So here I am now. She promised she would come back, but she is oh so cryptic. I pushed my luck. I have hope. Oh my love, come back to me!

The Romantic is sizing up all the other potential mates in my life. He wants to get married IMMEDIATELY. I say, people don’t do that anymore. He does not care. He says “people? Oh you mean ‘they’? They are all weak, worthless. Do not follow what ‘they’ believe. Look at her! Whew, dark hair blue eyes! And look, that one looks like your dream girl! The wavy blonde, well endowed!” I have to blush.

The Romantic is paying attention to all the other potentials in my life. I see with virgin eyes, everyone is beautiful to me, even the John Cenas of the world. But the Romantic? So judgemental. “I guarantee our lover had an IQ of at least 125. All these dumb girls, I want her, I want a woman!” They are very pretty though, I say, adding, you don’t even know them that well. “Hah! But tell me, which is more beautiful than the girl I love?” I scan the room, I scan my memory. No one. Maybe one. And, maybe she’s also just as smart. But again, between her and I, as between my love and I, there is a barrier, so for now…

I cherish my memory of her.

I hope she comes back, but I am not as certain as my romantic side. How certain is he? “For her, I would Blackmail the UNIVERSE!” But as for me…perhaps…she was never meant to be.

“But if she was!” …would she come back to me?

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ‘daaaaan’

Hold on to me as tightly as you caaaaan.
As I do you.
“Your wife is the closest person to you in your family” (Rabbi Friedman).
Why?
“Because she’s the only member that you choose, and she chooses back.”
How romantic!
Ah!
Marry me!

4a

Reruns.

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4b

The most important day of your life was the day you were born.
live up to it.

Alexandre “Jutt” Dirge

5

I am an inside out man
I don’t play to win
I play to have fun.
See my weaknesses, vulnerabilities,
my arguments, assertiveness?
And inside the calm thoughtful, loving you.

Hate what you think I may be!
I hold no grudges.
I don’t play to win,
I play to get hurt.
Though now I know
all your deficiencies and I love you more.

I am an inside out man
And it’s made me strong.

Now here I come.
Stand up, and plant your feet!

The Last of the First Act

For Lvsa, no matter what happens.
Likely, I am breaking many copyright laws
As well as other laws.

Signed in blood,
Daniel Triumph.

P.S.:
This was written around a month ago, and is thus no longer reality, but fiction.

“My life ended
And I missed it.” – dan…

The cause of my affliction
Can never be resolved
A case for self infliction
Whose sin can’t be dissolved
Your body’s empty now,
As I hold you—now gone I miss you,
But I TOLD you—

All within my hands
Love to death,
I LOVED YOU TO DETH
smack you ’round and round and
Choking is my fetish
All within my hands
Beware

Love is control
I’ll die if I let go
Give me one good reason
Why this has to be
That’s all I’m asking for
Don’t say that it’s over

Let it go
LET ME GO

Just then the walls opened, just as they promised not to flee
Their plans were turned around and
ALL THE LITTLE CUTS WILL BLEED

Fuck it all and no regrets
I hit the lights on these dark sets
I need a voice to let myself
To let myself go free
Fuck it all and fuckin’ no regrets
I hit the lights on these dark steps
Medallion noose, I hang myself
Saint Anger ’round my neck

And I choke… on the cross
As I hang… as I’m hanging Continue reading “The Last of the First Act”

Passive Regressions 2

13

Come into my empty body,
A rotting corpse that once was proud.
Ate alive by my depression,
Abandoned ’cause I am a coward.
Emotion systems overloaded
Neck got smashed ‘ the way back down.

Possibly I’ve had too much,
But never did you give too much.

I lost my fingers to your hungers
I lost those fingers to my hungers
I cannot feel a thing
I’ve killed myself
I’ve run away
And on the other side they say

Suicide is cowardice
An act of selfishness.
Fuck you get out of here
Medallion noose
Snaps my neck
Snaps itself
Neck got smashed on the way back down.

Possibly I’ve been too weak
But never have I given up

I return to the Hangar
I know too much
I open my eyes, skull in a brace
I open my mind, what will it take
I take the world, my fucking world
I’ll have your life

Coward no more
Run into my fears
It is the cure.

14

You were like sand,
Slip through my hand.
I cupped my fingers,
So part of you lingers.

Now we are closer,
I want you more.
Sandstone in holster.
What am I good for?

15

heeeey

Yaaay!
Talk to me!

No

Wha?

No!
You’re supposed to say,
“what?”

Oh

No, not “oh”!
!!
“what?”
try again.

heeeey!

What is it?

c:

❤️

16

I wait outside the gates,
And it is not safe.
I invite you out here,
But it will not take.

And so I give up.
It is not safe.
Do not leave you bedchaimber.
Do not leave your safe.

17

Resentment and revenge
Both punishable by death.

18

I see dead people in my dreams
They all have my own face.
Will I die unfulfilled?
What do you dream of?
A plant?

19

Shower away
my skin
Touch the
nervous within
be nice to me
don’t be mean
i just want
you
to
love me.

Head Crusher Ballad

If you are a Condor

Vulture!

Than I am an Ostrich

No flight!

Or a Troodon

Greek for “wounding tooth”!

I am very smart

Same

And I love you

Do I love you?

You do.

I do love you.

Of course :3

c:

And you fly through the window Outside and you
told me to search for you there
Among these fools, you do not belong.
Among your peers, you may carry on,
And I will lose contact
But I will win battles
And then I will see you
Through the mystery.

21

Is it a poem
if
it
is
just a link to a video?

Patriarcy

Woman will explain nothing, and expect you understand.
Man will explain everything, and still not understand.
Either way, man will know nothing.

23

I take your morality hostage.
Now what, bitch?
I’ll have your emotions too.
They are subject to me
Your mind? Keep that
Tyrannies aren’t worth it.

You asked for it, hun,
We’re in love!

24

Collect these tears;
Little memories,
Cute like you
I like them lots.
They remind me just
How much
I Love you.

25

I am so hungover
You poisoned me
I’m addicted to you
I don’t like the withdrawal
But next time
You will be good for me
And I’ll be good for you.

26

I have a trembling love.
I want to stabilize it but she says,
Don’t look, just touch.
I will do what I must.

Daniel Triumph.
9.15.2018

Daniel Triumph.

Passive Regressions
Active Impressions

Song of Leah

Song of Leah

Written by Jesus or Moses or something.
Edited and Arranged by Daniel T.
9.14.2018

And Laban said unto Jacob, Because thou art my brother, shouldest thou therefore serve me for nought? tell me, what shall thy wages be? And Laban had two daughters: the name of the elder was LEAH, and the name of the younger was Rachel.
And LEAH’S eyes were weak; but Rachel was beautiful and well favoured.
And Jacob loved Rachel; and said, I will serve thee seven years for Rachel thy younger daughter.
And Laban said, It is better that I give her to thee, than that I should give her to another man: abide with me.
And Jacob served seven years for Rachel; and they seemed unto him but a few days, for the love he had to her.
And he went in also unto Rachel, and he loved also Rachel more than LEAH. And HaShem saw that LEAH was hated, he opened her womb: but Rachel was barren And LEAH conceived, and bare a son.
“Because HaShem hath looked upon my affliction; now therefore my husband will love me.
“Because HaShem hath heard I was hated, He hath therefore given me this son also.
Now this time will my husband be joined unto me, because I have born him three sons.
And she conceived again, and bare a son: and she said, “Now will I praise the LORD:” therefore she called his name Judah; and left off bearing.

And Rachel said: “G-d hath judged me, and hath also heard my voice, and hath given me a son.”
And Rachel said: “With mighty wrestlings have I wrestled with my sister, and have prevailed.”
When LEAH saw that she had left bearing, she took Zilpah her maid, and gave her Jacob to wife.
“Fortune is come!”
“Happy am I! for the daughters will call me happy.” And she called his name Asher.

And Reuben went in the days of wheat harvest, and found mandrakes in the field, and brought them unto his mother LEAH. Then Rachel said to LEAH, Give me, I pray thee, of thy son’s mandrakes.
And LEAH said unto her, Is it a small matter that thou hast taken my husband? and wouldest thou take away my son’s mandrakes also? And Rachel said, Therefore he shall lie with thee to night for thy son’s mandrakes.
And Jacob came from the field in the evening, and LEAH went out to meet him, and said: and said, Thou must come in unto me; for surely I have hired thee with my son’s mandrakes. And he lay with her that night.
And G-d hearkened unto LEAH, and she conceived, and bare Jacob a fifth son.
G-d hath given me my hire, because I have given my maiden to my husband
And LEAH conceived again, and bare Jacob the sixth son.
G-d hath endued me with a good dowry; now will my husband dwell with me, because I have born him six sons.
And afterwards she bare a daughter, and called her name Dinah.

And G-d remembered Rachel, and G-d hearkened to her, and opened her womb.
And she conceived, and bare a son; and said, G-d hath taken away my reproach: And she called his name Joseph; and said, HaShem shall add to me another son.

Jacob said unto Laban, Send me away, that I may go unto mine own place, and to my country.
Give me my wives and my children, for whom I have served thee, and let me go: for thou knowest my service which I have done thee.

And Dinah the daughter of LEAH, which she bare unto Jacob, went out to see the daughters of the land.
And when Shechem the son of Hamor the Hivite, prince of the country, saw her, he took her, and lay with her, and defiled her.
And his soul clave unto Dinah the daughter of Jacob, and he loved the damsel, and spake kindly unto the damsel.
And Jacob heard that he had defiled Dinah his daughter: now his sons were with his cattle in the field: and Jacob held his peace until they were come.
And the sons of Jacob answered Shechem and Hamor his father deceitfully, and said, because he had defiled Dinah their sister:
And it came to pass on the third day, when they were sore, that two of the sons of Jacob, Simeon and Levi, Dinah’s brethren, took each man his sword, and came upon the city boldly, and slew all the males.
And they slew Hamor and Shechem his son with the edge of the sword, and took Dinah out of Shechem’s house, and went out.
The sons of Jacob came upon the slain, and spoiled the city, because they had defiled their sister.
And Jacob said to Simeon and Levi, Ye have troubled me to make me to stink among the inhabitants of the land, among the Canaanites and the Perizzites: and I being few in number, they shall gather themselves together against me, and slay me; and I shall be destroyed, I and my house.

And Jacob lifted up his eyes, and looked, and, behold, Esau came, and with him four hundred men. And he divided the children unto LEAH, and unto Rachel, and unto the two handmaids.
And he put the handmaids and their children foremost, and Leah and her children after, and Rachel and Joseph hindermost.

And they said, Should he deal with our sister as with an harlot? And G-d said unto Jacob, Arise, go up to Beth-el, and dwell there: and make there an altar unto G-d, that appeared unto thee when thou fleddest from the face of Esau thy brother.
And Jacob called the name of the place where G-d spake with him, Beth-el.

And it came to pass, when Israel dwelt in that land, that Reuben went and lay with Bilhah his father’s concubine: and Israel heard it. Now the sons of Jacob were twelve: The sons of LEAH; Reuben, Jacob’s firstborn, and Simeon, and Levi, and Judah, and Issachar, and Zebulun: The sons of Rachel; Joseph, and Benjamin: And the sons of Bilhah, Rachel’s handmaid; Dan, and Naphtali: And the sons of Zilpah, LEAH’s handmaid: Gad, and Asher: these are the sons of Jacob, which were born to him in Padanaram.
And Isaac gave up the ghost, and died, and was gathered unto his people, being old and full of days: and his sons Esau and Jacob buried him.

And Judah said unto his brethren, What profit is it if we slay our brother, and conceal his blood? Come, and let us sell him to the Ishmeelites, and let not our hand be upon him; for he is our brother and our flesh. And his brethren were content.
And it came to pass at that time, that Judah went down from his brethren, and turned in to a certain Adullamite, whose name was Hirah.
And Judah saw there a daughter of a certain Canaanite, whose name was Shuah; and he took her, and went in unto her.
And Er, Judah’s first-born, was wicked in the sight of the HaShem; and HaShem slew him.
And Judah said unto Onan, Go in unto thy brother’s wife, and marry her, and raise up seed to thy brother.
And Onan knew that the seed should not be his; and it came to pass, when he went in unto his brother’s wife, that he spilled it on the ground, lest that he should give seed to his brother.
And the thing which he did displeased the HaShem: wherefore he slew him also.
Then said Judah to Tamar his daughter in law, Remain a widow at thy father’s house, till Shelah my son be grown: for he said, Lest peradventure he die also, as his brethren did. And Tamar went and dwelt in her father’s house.
And in process of time the daughter of Shuah Judah’s wife died; and Judah was comforted, and went up unto his sheepshearers to Timnath, he and his friend Hirah the Adullamite.
And she put her widow’s garments off from her, and covered her with a vail, and wrapped herself, and sat in an open place, which is by the way to Timnath; for she saw that Shelah was grown, and she was not given unto him to wife.
When Judah saw her, he thought her to be an harlot; because she had covered her face.
And he turned unto her by the way, and said, Go to, I pray thee, let me come in unto thee; (for he knew not that she was his daughter in law.) And she said, What wilt thou give me, that thou mayest come in unto me? And he said, I will send thee a kid from the flock. And she said, Wilt thou give me a pledge, till thou send it? And he said, What pledge shall I give thee? And she said, Thy signet, and thy bracelets, and thy staff that is in thine hand. And he gave it her, and came in unto her, and she conceived by him.
And she arose, and went away, and laid by her vail from her, and put on the garments of her widowhood.
And Judah sent the kid by the hand of his friend the Adullamite, to receive his pledge from the woman’s hand: but he found her not.
Then he asked the men of that place, saying, Where is the harlot, that was openly by the way side? And they said, There was no harlot in this place.
And he returned to Judah, and said, I cannot find her; and also the men of the place said, that there was no harlot in this place.
And Judah said, Let her take it to her, lest we be shamed: behold, I sent this kid, and thou hast not found her.
And it came to pass about three months after, that it was told Judah, saying, Tamar thy daughter in law hath played the harlot; and also, behold, she is with child by whoredom. And Judah said, Bring her forth, and let her be burnt.
And Judah acknowledged them, and said, She hath been more righteous than I; because that I gave her not to Shelah my son. And he knew her again no more.
And it came to pass in the time of her travail, that, behold, twins were in her womb.

And it came to pass, when they had eaten up the corn which they had brought out of Egypt, their father said unto them, Go again, buy us a little food.
And Judah spake unto him, saying, The man did solemnly protest unto us, saying, Ye shall not see my face, except your brother be with you.
thou wilt send our brother with us, we will go down and buy thee food
Judah said unto Israel his father, Send the lad with me, and we will arise and go; that we may live, and not die, both we, and thou, and also our little ones.
I will be surety for him; of my hand shalt thou require him: if I bring him not unto thee, and set him before thee, then let me bear the blame for ever: For except we had lingered, surely now we had returned this second time.
And Judah and his brethren came to Joseph’s house; for he was yet there: and they fell before him on the ground.
Then Judah came near unto him, and said, Oh my lord, let thy servant, I pray thee, speak a word in my lord’s ears, and let not thine anger burn against thy servant: for thou art even as Pharaoh.
My lord asked his servants, saying, Have ye a father, or a brother?
And we said unto my lord, We have a father, an old man, and a child of his old age, a little one; and his brother is dead, and he alone is left of his mother, and his father loveth him.
And thou saidst unto thy servants, Bring him down unto me, that I may set mine eyes upon him.

And the sons of Judah; Er, and Onan, and Shelah, and Pharez, and Zarah: but Er and Onan died in the land of Canaan. And the sons of Pharez were Hezron and Hamul.
These be the sons of LEAH, which she bare unto Jacob in Padanaram, with his daughter Dinah: all the souls of his sons and his daughters were thirty and three.
These are the sons of Zilpah, whom Laban gave to LEAH his daughter, and these she bare unto Jacob, even sixteen souls.

Judah, thou art he whom thy brethren shall praise: thy hand shall be in the neck of thine enemies; thy father’s children shall bow down before thee.
Judah is a lion’s whelp: from the prey, my son, thou art gone up: he stooped down, he couched as a lion, and as an old lion; who shall rouse him up? The sceptre shall not depart from Judah, nor a lawgiver from between his feet, until Shiloh come; and unto him shall the gathering of the people be.

And all the people that were in the gate, and the elders, said, We are witnesses. The HaShem make the woman that is come into thine house like Rachel and like LEAH, which two did build the house of Israel: and do thou worthily in Ephratah, and be famous in Bethlehem.

All these are the twelve tribes of Israel: and this is it that their father spake unto them, and blessed them; every one according to his blessing he blessed them.
And he charged them, and said unto them, I am to be gathered unto my people: bury me with my fathers in the cave that is in the field of Ephron the Hittite,  In the cave that is in the field of Machpelah, which is before Mamre, in the land of Canaan, which Abraham bought with the field of Ephron the Hittite for a possession of a buryingplace.

There they buried Abraham and Sarah his wife; there they buried Isaac and Rebekah his wife; and there I buried Le’ah.

Earlier version, “Story of Leah.”

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The Solune Prince

The first (and second) draft(s) of The Solune Prince’s first novella are coming to an end. On paper, I’ve completed fourteen chapters, and the blog has up to chapter eleven primed and set for the following few Thursdays (with occasional breaks, as usual), whereas the manuscript in my word processor brings that up to twelve.

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Chapters

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Planned

18

This number changes a LOT (usually, it gets bigger as I find out that some chapters need to be split up for pacing and atmospheric reasons). Suffice to say, this is only Novella one of nine or ten, so it will not be too long or else no one would ever read it. (Unless they also read Tolstoy’s bloated monstrosities.)

Handwritten

14

I write so I take my time and remember it better. It is a very deliberate and loving action.

Word Processed

12

I type to prepare it and make sure everything fits. This is what will be edited and turned into a full novella PDF, and possibly published properly.

Scheduled

11

This is my safety window. I have a few week’s worth of writing scheduled, so I can take my time and not worry.

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9

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Recorded and on Soundcloud

7

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Hopefully those who enjoyed Novella 1 will join me for the others as well, and complete the story of Chloe Rhye’s late coming of age.

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